Finding My Voice Again

(This is something I was suddenly inspired to write, late at night, after feeling blocked for so long! So healing!)

"Be quiet," they said, "you talk too much."

So, I stopped sharing and swallowed it down,

Like the food that kept me company.

"Lose weight," they said, "you're too big,

No one will want you; no one will marry you."

So, I assumed I'd be alone, but I'd be okay.

"Don't be silly," they said,

"You're just a baby,

Your opinion doesn't count."

So, I no longer had one.

But I had plans, and I had dreams,

And I pursued them... quietly.

"Where are you going?" they said,

"You can't leave here; you can't make it alone!"

But I did and I survived, and I thrived.

"We knew it couldn't last," they said,

"You didn't know what you were doing,

You should never have left us."

But I left, and I made mistakes,

and they were mine, and I learned,

and I kept going, and I made a new life.

"Come back," they said, "come visit, let's be together."

But I had clarity, and I was free, and I was happy.

And I never went back, never even considered it.

And as they faded, whispers in the dust,

I knew I'd never return, never regret the flight.

In the silence I found my voice, in darkness, light. 

I was encouraged by some sweet teachers on Insight Timer to turn this into a track.  You can click here to listen: https://insighttimer.com/violet108/guided-meditations/finding-my-voice-again

More cool facts about the number 108

 

I read this today, and in addition to the other facts I've read about this sacred number, I love this:

In Hinduism, 108 represents the union of 1 (Brahman, the ultimate reality) and 0 (Maya, the illusion of the world) with 8 (the 8 directions of the compass, representing all possibilities). This combination symbolizes the totality of existence.

Hope and Love

"Hope and Love" by Jane Hirshfield. Another favorite. Another journaling prompt for my Insight Timer journaling tracks.  

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"Hope is the hardest love we carry"... such a powerful statement...

Hope and Love

by Jane Hirshfield

All winter

the blue heron

slept among the horses.

I do not know

the custom of herons,

do not know

if the solitary habit

is their way,

or if he listened for

some missing one—

not knowing even

that was what he did—

in the blowing

sounds in the dark,

I know that

hope is the hardest

love we carry.

He slept

with his long neck

folded, like a letter

put away.

The Guest House

Love this poem for so many reasons.  I used it as a journaling prompt on a track I created for Insight Timer recently and wanted to share it here for anyone else who might enjoy it.

And if you love Insight Timer as much as I do, listen to this track and journal with me: "The Guest House" By Rumi (Journaling Prompt)

The Guest House ~~ Rumi

This being human is a guest house.

Every morning a new arrival.

A joy, a depression, a meanness,

some momentary awareness comes

as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!

Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,

who violently sweep your house

empty of its furniture,

still, treat each guest honorably.

He may be clearing you out

for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,

meet them at the door laughing,

and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,

because each has been sent

as a guide from beyond.

Scripting

 I'm a huge fan of scripting, so I had to share this link!

3 things to do when scripting.

Insight Timer LIVE: Surrendering to Life's Calling with Dayana and Don

 Dayana Pereira and Don McAvinchey came together LIVE for a second time on Insight Timer (10/5/23) to have another conversation.  This time the topic was about "The Surrender Experiment", where Michael Singer says we can gradually give over our lives to what Spirit is calling us to do. It takes practice, and a commitment to see the difficult events in our lives as opportunities for letting go...

Click here to watch the replay. 

https://youtu.be/2DwBaPTEU7w

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Insight Timer LIVE: Going With the Spirit - A Flowing Conversation with Dayana and Don

Dayana Pereira and Don McAvinchey came together LIVE on Insight Timer (9/23/23) to have a conversation on what it's like to flow with their sense of Spirit. These two dynamic teachers shared their inspiration and hearts around their experience and called on the Insight Timer community to share as well.

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https://youtu.be/haXjP_SlRK0

As everyone knows by now, I'm a HUGE fan of Insight Timer because of amazing teachers like these two!

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Dayana Pereira - https://insighttimer.com/dayana

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